I'm Crying Everyone's Tears

Thoughts of an assassin.
As harsh as these words are, these thoughts are not so hard to come by. How easy is it to be stressed? So much so that you want to just lash out on anything that moves.
Or better yet just shun everyone else out because of fear of what you might want to do. Please don't get me confused, I have no intent to harm anyone, but this is just how I feel.
Sometimes one has so much going on inside of them, its easy for the mind to go blank and simultaneously think of so much and nothing at all.
My heart is heavy and full of despair. But what fuels a hopeless heart?
Perhaps thoughts of hope and change and beliefs that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
My longing for hope decreases tenfold each day because my heart is always left hungry with no change in sight. Certainly not enough to begin to satisfy my hearts voracioius appetite. So what happens?, I grow immune. Immune to loss, to failures, I reject the notion that good things will come to good people. Quite frankly, it never does!

On my Sade Shit right now. "I feel like I am the King of Sorrow"

Lyrics by John Legend... Extraordinare!

"Another Again"
Mr. Johnny Legend

So we did it again
Knowing we should quit it, but we simply won't admit it again
Oh it feels good, it's so good, but I won't do it again
It's so dramatic again, After we go at it, we get mad then we go at it again
Oh I love it, then I hate it, he's my favorite again
I'm wasting time I can't help it he's so fine
Oh I like her style And I love the way he talks and I smile
As much as we may try Can't quite see eye to eye
So in the meantime, I guess we say bye-bye
Oh, and then, we do it againWe do it again and we do it again Oh, and then, we do it again
We want it again, and we want it again
So we fake it again
I think we're gonna blow it, and we know it But he's naked again
We get wasted, then I taste it, then I waste it again
I can't invite him again'Cause he'll go from a lover to a fighterAnd I'll fight him again
So it's over, but I told him to come over again
I'm wasting time
But he's always on my mindI can't let him go
Oh, he's not the best, but he's all that I know
As much as we may tryCan't quite see eye to eye
So in the meantime I guess we say bye-bye
Oh, and then, we do it againWe do it again and we do it again
Oh, and then, we do it againWe want it again, and we want it again
So I've got a new friendI wish I could forget youBut I miss you, wanna kiss you again
He's like you, but he's not you, gotta find you again
So we remember againThe middle of December and I took you out to dinner again
Oh I love him, it's not over, just another again

*All the she's have been changed to he's by me... contrary to popular belief, HE's NOT GAY!

I AM WHATEVER YOU SAY I AM

I never understood people who are so paranoid that they believe things are happening around them that aren't really happening at all. I've never had any real problems with anyone but it seems people are trying to box me into some category. I've been labeled a bitch, stank and rude all in one week. People who KNOW me knows that i'm not any of those things. (Well 2 out of 3 ain't bad lol). I don't even know if this is worth blogging about because its's so silly to me. I guess I'm on my Eminem flow for now. "I AM WHATEVER YOU SAY I AM, IF IWASN'T THEN WHY WOULD I SAY I AM, IN THE PAPER, THE NEWS EVERYDAY I AM". I find this quote so appropriate because my name is actually in the school paper lol!!! But anyway, the moral of this story is that haters are lurking everywhere. I just need to keep being true to myself and keep believing in myself and everything else will fall into place.

I believe it so I will achieve it!

Niggers are scared of revolution

This one was given to me by a colleague, Thanks!

Artist: The Last Poets (a little edits here and there, but the message is still the same)

Album: Restless
Song: Niggaz Are Scared of Revolution

Niggers are scared of revolution
But niggers shouldn't be scared of revolution
Because revolution is nothing but change
And all niggers do is change
Niggers come in from work and change into pimping clothes
and hit the streets to make some quick change
Niggers change their hair from black to red to blond
and hope like hell their looks will change
Nigger kill other niggers
Just because one didn't receive the correct change
Niggers always goin' through bullshit change
But when it comes for real change,
Niggers are scared of revolution
Niggers are actors, niggers are actors
Niggers act like they are in a hurry
to catch the first act of the 'Great White Hope'
Niggers try to act like Malcolm
And when the white man doesn't react
toward them like he did Malcolm
Niggers want to act violently
Niggers act so coooool and slick
causing white people to say:
What makes you niggers act like that?
Niggers act like you ain't never seen nobody act before
But when it comes to acting out revolution
Niggers say: 'I can't dig them actions!'
Niggers are scared of revolution
Niggers talk about pimping
Pimping that, pimping what
Pimping yours, pimping mine
Just to be pimping, is a helluva line
Niggers are very untogether people
Niggers talk about the mind
Talk about: My mind is stronger than yours
"I got that bitch's mind uptight!"
Niggers don't know a damn thing about the mind
Or they'd be right
Niggers are scared of revolution
Niggers fuck. Niggers fuck, fuck, fuck
Niggers love the word fuck
They think it's so fuckin' cute
They fuck you around
The first thing they say when they're mad: 'Fuck it'
You play a little too much with them
They say 'Fuck you'
When it's time to TCB,
Niggers are somewhere fucking
Try to be nice to them, they fuck over you
Niggers don't realize while they doin' all this fucking
They're getting fucked around
And when they do realize it's too late
So niggers just get fucked up
Niggers tell you they're ready to be liberated
But when you say 'Let's go take our liberation'
Niggers reply: 'I was just playin'
Niggers are playing with revolution and losing
Niggers are scared of revolution
Niggers do a lot of shootin'
Niggers do a lot of shootin'
Niggers shoot off at the mouth
Niggers shoot pool, niggers shoot craps
Niggers cut around the corner and shoot down the street
Niggers shoot sharp glances at white women
Niggers shoot dope into their arm
Niggers shoot guns and rifles on New Year's Eve
A new year that is coming in
The white police will do more shooting at them
Where are niggers when the revolution needs some shots!?
Yeah, you know. Niggers are somewhere shootin' the shit
Niggers are scared of revolution
"You can take niggers out of the country, but
you can't take the country out of niggers"
Niggers are lovers, are lovers, are lovers
Niggers loved to hear Malcolm rap
But they didn't love Malcolm
Niggers love everything but themselves
But I'm a lover too, yes I'm a lover too
I love niggers, I love niggers, I love niggers
Because niggers are me
And I should only love that which is me
I love to see niggers go through changes
Love to see niggers act
Love to see niggers make them plays and shoot the shit
But there is one thing about niggers I do not love
Niggers are scared of revolution

"Again" John Legend

"Again" before it was on the album

"Fantasize" Floetry

I've never been a huge fan of floetry but they definitely have some heat. Here is one of them

"Marathon" Raheem Devaughn at BB King's

Gotta luv this guy!

Pacifist

So I realized how beautiful the word pacifist was today. One who opposes war or violence of any kind. That is so me. Pacifist in my own right. If everyone could take heed to this word, how wonderful would this world be?