I haven't been Diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder...

After Date #3, I realize that I may have made a mistake about this guy. I think we got along so well at first because he was very inquisitive ( and I do like talking about myself! lol) but now that the initial "getting to know you is done", i find myself a little annoyed by him. He is an extremely nice guy but I think he may have some unresolved issues, and quite frankly i see him more as a friend; definitely not feeling that romantic vibe... I guess I spoke WAY too soon!!!

Magic Man

Ok All... So I met this guy...and all I can say is "Perfection!", well almost. Handsome, great personality, funny, career, loves kids, considerate, thoughtful, smart, independent... I mean I can go on, but I'll stop there. I never thought that I would find ONE guy who has all of these great qualities. Granted if I could put several guys in to one, then maybe I could come close but I seriously seem to have found ONE man who embodies all of the characteristics I have been looking for. I still find it hard to believe that things could work out so perfectly, this is not to say that I am looking for a flaw, but maybe I'm mentally preparing myself for one. (lol)

If I could be like some kind of master scultptor of people, and make some tweaks or changes about him, I would make him little taller but honestly, his height is really a minute detail when considering how great he is, or seems to be so far.

Here is an oath I have made to myself, I have decided to be smarter in 09'...

I will keep an open mind and open heart without being blind, I will let things happen with he and I naturally, I will not force anything, I will be the sophisticated, moral woman I was raised to be, I will not take him for granted, I will not take advantage, I will show him the respect that he shows me, I will not mess this up for myself, I will not push him away from fear, I will not hold him in such high regard that I forget that he is only human and bound to make human mistakes. I will love myself first and, if it gets that far, Love him after. I won't make the same mistakes I have made in the past. Most importantly... I will not take any crap.

Love knows no Boundaries

This video almost made me cry. It is a true testament that love knows no boundaries...I Love you Christian the lion!!

Hmmmmmmmm?

Had a pretty good day. Chilled with a guy who was very kind and very sweet. It was kind of a breath of fresh air for me, being that I haven't really hung out with someone so sincere and genuine as he. We didn't do much but I enjoyed his company. I think this one may be something serious ya'll...Will keep you posted.

Blog Worthy? I think so...Bush Almost Gets Got

So pissed he missed!

Santa Baby...

Another Christmas passes and I am flat broke. It doesn't look like anyone will get any holiday cheer from me so I hope my thoughts count. I, however, have compiled a Christmas list just in case someone wants to show me some holiday love!! Here goes:

Honey's Christmas List

1. 8GB Ipod Nano (pink, purple, or blue one)
2. The New Mac Book
3. Ralph for women
4. Gift card to the Gap
5. "Ruffles", here is the link http://www.bakersshoes.com/product.aspx?c=445&p=98800
Ask my size!
6. Warm Vanilla Sugar Signature Fragrances from Bath and Body
7. $50-$100 Carol's Daughter Gift Card (your call)

Thats all for now, Any takers?

"Pretty in Pink Party"

So one of my fabulous friends had a "Pretty in Pink Party", loosely based on the movie Pretty in Pink, which I have never seen. The theme was very cute and all girlicious like. Some of the guests were decked out in 80's gear, everyone else had on some remnant of pink. There was food, drinks, and games to determine how close you and your best friend really are. I learned more about my friends playing this game.
We were supposed to view the film "Pretty in Pink". My friend planned to order the film On Demand while but found out that it was no longer available for viewing. What are the chances of that??? Movies are usually available OnDemand forever, but on the day of her pretty pink shindig, its not there. I found it quite amusing. At this party, I became acquainted with the hostess' friend. She happens to be the great granddaughter of Marcus Garvey. I found that pretty amazing. I'm partying with the leader of the "Back to Africa" movements great granddaughter! Not something that happens to everyone everyday LOL.
Anywho, I love my friends, they are all gorgeous and they looked EXCEPTIONALLY "Pretty in Pink" ;)


Good Job T!

Is it Possible...

Throwback for true fans. Bootleg Video but the song is GREAT

Damn Kanye picked Johnny up from the trenches! He's still cute though.
Look at him now, all sophisticatified and all a that! Truly Evolved.

I am NOT my Affiliation

Group affiliation can produce positive and negative outcomes. Sometimes groups ostracize others and give those within the group a false sense of self, faux friendships etc. Other times, group affiliation can produce goodness in MASS quantities.
For all those who are apart of some social group/network, ask yourself these questions. Are you doing more harm than good with your group?, What is the bigger aim you are trying to reach and are you reaching it? Are you pushing those who aren't necessarily affiliates away? Who are your real friends? Why are you really apart of your group?
If you answer these questions honestly, you may learn something about yourself

Obama Obama Obama!

Being the change we want to see since 1967! BSU Representing for Barack Obama. Getting him those votes in Cleveland, Ohio. Definitley will dedicate a post to the trip, for now enjoy some pics of Mr. President, 2 days before he became President!

The Alter Ego, In case you were wondering

The Alter Ego

Raheem Devaughn Concert Pictures

He is the man! I love him! He's great! He's a lot better looking in person too.

Every word in this posts gonna be about "YOU"

Raheem Devaughn was definitely wonderful. He performed almost all of the songs that I love. The show's venue was small thus creating a very personal feel. He was very charismatic, very enticing, very energetic. But of course, all of the "fake fans" were all over him. Despicable! As soon as he came out, a flock of girls flooded the stage. And might I add there was no security to block the fans from him, there was nothing between him and his "adoring fans" but space and opportunity. And yes, the flock of birds definitely were in for the kill. One girl was so beasty as to try to unbuckle his belt. He had to keep moving back from her until his one, lonely, security guard stopped it. Mad thirsty mad thirsty mad thirsty! Those Buff State girls are a trip. At the end of the show, he came out and signed autographs so I definitely snagged one, "Kudos for me!!". He is definitly one of my favorite artists so getting to see him for only 5 dollars was awesome. Truly. Anyway, farewell Mr. Devaughn, hope to see you soon...maybe I'll get my hug next time...

New Joint by Maxwell "Pretty Wings"

Mmmmm, Very Refreshing, What We've been waiting for...

"Notorious" Trailer

Seeing this will probably make me cry.

Cafferty from CNN Bombs Sarah Palin LOL, He is so Pissed!!!

Qualified for Vice President, if she is then I definitely am too! And thats all I have to say about that!

The Fashion World Wasn't Ready for Korto! Project Runway Jargon

So mad that Korto lost Project Runway! Her designs were hott!! I think the only reason she lost was because her clothing was for women of all Shades. Her clothing would appeal to all different types of women. Isn't that the beauty of fashion though? BONK! I guess not! I guess that would have been a bit too much for the world of high fashion. High fashion only has room for one ethnic piece at a time which is always worn by the signature "African model". Kudos to Leanne though, her styles were definitely hot as well ( I CANNOT HATE) but Korto had it all! Diversity, beauty and style in all of her designs. Tear Tear, Black girls always finish last!!!!!

If you don't stand for something you will fall for anything

Today I participated and was one of the leaders of the Student Association Unity Rally. The purpose of this rally was to promote diversity at UB ( a predominantly white school). In the schools newspaper, The Spectrum, the Black Student Union was attacked and called a "racist organization". They also attacked the LGBTA (Lesbian, Gay, BiSexual, Transgendered Alliance) by saying that gay people put "their gender over their duty to be a human" by joining a club such as LGBTA. The editor that wrote this opinion piece has chosen to completely ignore the reason's that these clubs were started. All of the clubs that participated in today's rally all began because students of color and gay students had no voice, especially at this university. BSU was founded in 1967 at the tip end of the civil rights movement and at the dawn of the Black Panther Movement during a time of civil unrest and social inequality. Today we have evolved as a club whose main focus is to teach UB Students about black culture and to give black students an outlet to be themselves. We discuss topics that affect black people but we invite all to join so they can learn about the culture. When I first came to UB, I met students who had never dealt with a person of color on a personal basis. Some had never even seen a black person in person. What type of shit is that?? This is why clubs such as BSU exist. The racist bastards at the Spectrum will never know what it's like to sit in a classroom and be the only black student and feeling like whatever you say speaks for the entire race. I don't expect them to understand, they are all kids that benefit from white privelage. I'm glad my organization as well as several others got a chance to get together to let UB students know the reason why we exist and to prove that none of us are racist organizations.

If I Could Forget Him, I Would, Please Believe Me...

You are so wrong for me. You are semi what I need in my life. You have some qualities I like in a man, but certainly lack the ones I appreciate the most. You never agree with me, you never take anything seriously. But still, I can't forget you and I still don't know if I want to.

Jazmine Sullivan "I'll Bust The Windows Out Your Car"

This song is way too hot for this video to be so whack. Who directed this? They clearly have no vision. Just listening to the song you would think there would be at least 1 drama filled scene. Perhaps a busted window??? Even if the director didn't want to be so cliche, this video could have been so much better, strictly based off the content of the lyrics. I personally would have loved to see a scene with Ms. Sullivan busting the windows out of a Mercedes or a nice Lambo. This video is a big let down for the ladies who have dealt with a similar situation. The song is still hot though.

Palin Can't Even Name Supreme Court Cases

So the ho claims she can find issues with several other court cases but can't name any. I can't even believe how dumb and underqualified she is for ANY government position. I know McCain is kicking himself for choosing her as his running mate. Thats what his ass gets for trying to be slick by choosing a faux Hillar Clinton. Voters are dumb, but not that dumb...

Post Secret

So I just found out about this cool new blog/series of books entitled "Post Secret". Apparently I am behind the rest of the world because I just found out about it a couple of weeks ago. Post Secret is an art project started by this guy named Frank where people all around the world send him their most deepest and darkest secrets. Some of the secrets are really sad and others are really funny. All of them serve the purpose of allowing the sender of the secret to express themselves freely and anonymously for the entire world to see. I had to share this with those who read my blog because I really think this project is cool. It's been going on for 4 years now. The guy who started this project actually had a talk at my school. I wish I would have known about him and his project before he came here because I definitely would have gone. If you want to learn more about this project, please watch this video. It tells you about how it all began and gives you a sneak peak at some of the post cards that people have sent in. After watching the very short film, I am sure you will be as touched as I was.

Coffee is a Virtue

How can it be physically possible to read the same sentence 10 times and still not understand what you've read?
Why is everything more interesting than what I'm supposed to be reading. And when I say everything, I do mean everything and anything.
If I could actually study the entire time without venturing off into cyberworld or my minds current events, I may have been done studying by now. But no, instead its 2:27 am and I'm blogging about not being able to study. I can guarantee you that this is more interesting than studying though.
Any Who, I guess I will go back to studying as soon as I check all of my emails from all three of my email accounts, erase some songs from my itunes that I've listened to only once, put my clothes in the laundry bag, check facebook 2 more times, and make some more coffee!

"Love isn't something you find, Love is something that finds you"

-Loretta Young


To whomever this may possibly concern,

It may be impossible to find your perfect match or "soul mate" so to speak. If it was possible to find this person, I would like to think that I would have. I've been very alert, attentive, observant and vigilant. All at once. With that said, I guess it is safe to say that I have been on the lookout. Even still, this magical person has yet to reveal himself; leading me to believe that the old saying is true. "When you stop looking for something, you will usually find it". This phenomenon holds true in so many instances. Like when you can't find your remote or an earring. As soon as you stop looking or better yet, when your in the process of looking for something else, you find the one thing you were looking for previously. When you do find it, your response is usually something like "Wow, I was looking for this!" when in actuality, you weren't looking for It. It found you. What a lovely feeling it is when something you were looking for finds you.

Sincerely,
Lost in Buffalo and waiting to be found LOL

Super Uber Excited about seeing Raheem in Concierto!

Wednesday October 22, 2008 at Buffalo State College's Rockwell Hall. Raheem Devaughn Live and Intimate, Why cant the University at Buffalo do stuff like this!!! The best part about this amazing concert is that I only had to pay 5 bucks!!!!, I would have paid $500 to see him!!!

M.I.A. Paper Planes

I sooo never knew what this girl's name was or what the hell she was saying but the song is pretty good. I thought I was gona have to see the "Pineapple Express" movie to ever hear this song again!

Neyo, Jamie Foxx and Fab She Got Her Own "Official Remix to Miss Independent"

Neyo brought Fabolous and Jamie in this one, I think its way better than the original. Opinions are welcomed!!

Kanye West's new single "Heartless"

New live version of Heartless

I'm Crying Everyone's Tears

Thoughts of an assassin.
As harsh as these words are, these thoughts are not so hard to come by. How easy is it to be stressed? So much so that you want to just lash out on anything that moves.
Or better yet just shun everyone else out because of fear of what you might want to do. Please don't get me confused, I have no intent to harm anyone, but this is just how I feel.
Sometimes one has so much going on inside of them, its easy for the mind to go blank and simultaneously think of so much and nothing at all.
My heart is heavy and full of despair. But what fuels a hopeless heart?
Perhaps thoughts of hope and change and beliefs that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
My longing for hope decreases tenfold each day because my heart is always left hungry with no change in sight. Certainly not enough to begin to satisfy my hearts voracioius appetite. So what happens?, I grow immune. Immune to loss, to failures, I reject the notion that good things will come to good people. Quite frankly, it never does!

On my Sade Shit right now. "I feel like I am the King of Sorrow"

Lyrics by John Legend... Extraordinare!

"Another Again"
Mr. Johnny Legend

So we did it again
Knowing we should quit it, but we simply won't admit it again
Oh it feels good, it's so good, but I won't do it again
It's so dramatic again, After we go at it, we get mad then we go at it again
Oh I love it, then I hate it, he's my favorite again
I'm wasting time I can't help it he's so fine
Oh I like her style And I love the way he talks and I smile
As much as we may try Can't quite see eye to eye
So in the meantime, I guess we say bye-bye
Oh, and then, we do it againWe do it again and we do it again Oh, and then, we do it again
We want it again, and we want it again
So we fake it again
I think we're gonna blow it, and we know it But he's naked again
We get wasted, then I taste it, then I waste it again
I can't invite him again'Cause he'll go from a lover to a fighterAnd I'll fight him again
So it's over, but I told him to come over again
I'm wasting time
But he's always on my mindI can't let him go
Oh, he's not the best, but he's all that I know
As much as we may tryCan't quite see eye to eye
So in the meantime I guess we say bye-bye
Oh, and then, we do it againWe do it again and we do it again
Oh, and then, we do it againWe want it again, and we want it again
So I've got a new friendI wish I could forget youBut I miss you, wanna kiss you again
He's like you, but he's not you, gotta find you again
So we remember againThe middle of December and I took you out to dinner again
Oh I love him, it's not over, just another again

*All the she's have been changed to he's by me... contrary to popular belief, HE's NOT GAY!

I AM WHATEVER YOU SAY I AM

I never understood people who are so paranoid that they believe things are happening around them that aren't really happening at all. I've never had any real problems with anyone but it seems people are trying to box me into some category. I've been labeled a bitch, stank and rude all in one week. People who KNOW me knows that i'm not any of those things. (Well 2 out of 3 ain't bad lol). I don't even know if this is worth blogging about because its's so silly to me. I guess I'm on my Eminem flow for now. "I AM WHATEVER YOU SAY I AM, IF IWASN'T THEN WHY WOULD I SAY I AM, IN THE PAPER, THE NEWS EVERYDAY I AM". I find this quote so appropriate because my name is actually in the school paper lol!!! But anyway, the moral of this story is that haters are lurking everywhere. I just need to keep being true to myself and keep believing in myself and everything else will fall into place.

I believe it so I will achieve it!

Niggers are scared of revolution

This one was given to me by a colleague, Thanks!

Artist: The Last Poets (a little edits here and there, but the message is still the same)

Album: Restless
Song: Niggaz Are Scared of Revolution

Niggers are scared of revolution
But niggers shouldn't be scared of revolution
Because revolution is nothing but change
And all niggers do is change
Niggers come in from work and change into pimping clothes
and hit the streets to make some quick change
Niggers change their hair from black to red to blond
and hope like hell their looks will change
Nigger kill other niggers
Just because one didn't receive the correct change
Niggers always goin' through bullshit change
But when it comes for real change,
Niggers are scared of revolution
Niggers are actors, niggers are actors
Niggers act like they are in a hurry
to catch the first act of the 'Great White Hope'
Niggers try to act like Malcolm
And when the white man doesn't react
toward them like he did Malcolm
Niggers want to act violently
Niggers act so coooool and slick
causing white people to say:
What makes you niggers act like that?
Niggers act like you ain't never seen nobody act before
But when it comes to acting out revolution
Niggers say: 'I can't dig them actions!'
Niggers are scared of revolution
Niggers talk about pimping
Pimping that, pimping what
Pimping yours, pimping mine
Just to be pimping, is a helluva line
Niggers are very untogether people
Niggers talk about the mind
Talk about: My mind is stronger than yours
"I got that bitch's mind uptight!"
Niggers don't know a damn thing about the mind
Or they'd be right
Niggers are scared of revolution
Niggers fuck. Niggers fuck, fuck, fuck
Niggers love the word fuck
They think it's so fuckin' cute
They fuck you around
The first thing they say when they're mad: 'Fuck it'
You play a little too much with them
They say 'Fuck you'
When it's time to TCB,
Niggers are somewhere fucking
Try to be nice to them, they fuck over you
Niggers don't realize while they doin' all this fucking
They're getting fucked around
And when they do realize it's too late
So niggers just get fucked up
Niggers tell you they're ready to be liberated
But when you say 'Let's go take our liberation'
Niggers reply: 'I was just playin'
Niggers are playing with revolution and losing
Niggers are scared of revolution
Niggers do a lot of shootin'
Niggers do a lot of shootin'
Niggers shoot off at the mouth
Niggers shoot pool, niggers shoot craps
Niggers cut around the corner and shoot down the street
Niggers shoot sharp glances at white women
Niggers shoot dope into their arm
Niggers shoot guns and rifles on New Year's Eve
A new year that is coming in
The white police will do more shooting at them
Where are niggers when the revolution needs some shots!?
Yeah, you know. Niggers are somewhere shootin' the shit
Niggers are scared of revolution
"You can take niggers out of the country, but
you can't take the country out of niggers"
Niggers are lovers, are lovers, are lovers
Niggers loved to hear Malcolm rap
But they didn't love Malcolm
Niggers love everything but themselves
But I'm a lover too, yes I'm a lover too
I love niggers, I love niggers, I love niggers
Because niggers are me
And I should only love that which is me
I love to see niggers go through changes
Love to see niggers act
Love to see niggers make them plays and shoot the shit
But there is one thing about niggers I do not love
Niggers are scared of revolution

"Again" John Legend

"Again" before it was on the album

"Fantasize" Floetry

I've never been a huge fan of floetry but they definitely have some heat. Here is one of them

"Marathon" Raheem Devaughn at BB King's

Gotta luv this guy!

Pacifist

So I realized how beautiful the word pacifist was today. One who opposes war or violence of any kind. That is so me. Pacifist in my own right. If everyone could take heed to this word, how wonderful would this world be?

He's gonna sing at my wedding, I Promise you

By far one of my favorite artists, you really can't get any better than him...

Bernie Mac too!

I want black people to take care of their health. We are losing too many between the ages of 45-50. Wake Up People! Wake Up!